DANG!! I did it again...
I wonder why I get verbal diarrhea in front of a new crowd and then suffer the consequences--worse than bed rest!
Its been almost 2 months since I am working at this new workplace of mine and yesterday, I did it again. Those lunch conversations we have, office colleagues, has a wide spectrum. Most often than not, we have heated conversations leading to a sudden lull since some or the other person is hurt by some strong views/reviews.
Now, I do not understand, why do you participate in such conversations if you are not going to respect people's view on certain things!!? You gotta accept things if people are hearing yours...or even accepting yours! No, this does not make my mistake seem smaller, but this is just a point i always wonder about !
I have this wonderfully gross habit of using harsh words like 'hate' in my conversation. Now, not always do I mean it. Come to think about it, there are a very few things I would hate ..more subtle and better is always ' do not like', 'dislike' ~~ but HATE !! It brings out a series of emotions of sorts...least for people around me, it does!
In the second week itself, I had committed the mistake for the first time. The girl in question was like, she does not wish to discuss this anymore. Though, the remaining us continued the conversation I realized I have hurt her strong views about something, by using the word 'HATE' I did apologize to her and made a note of not doing it again!!!
But darn..i did it again yesterday. Yesterday, the person in question buzzed me and requested not to talk such things about her 'daily strong beliefs' with adjectives like 'HATE'
Errr....now I was like....feeling bad and remorseful and at the same time, wondering whether there is a treatment for this disease that I suffer. I did go to her and sorted it out, the issue is at peace...but then, why did I do it again !!!!???
Its fine to have views and put them forward. But I need to learn to be subtle, to be more acceptable and may be see the kind of crowd in front of whom am talking! Phew!! Thank god am not a politician, would have landed in jail by now for my 'HATE' speeches!
Second mistake. Need to improve. Keep my strong views to myself. Need not be so explicit. Need to be 'choosy' while using harsh words. Lesson learnt. And should NOT be repeated.
Huh!! What a mess I create at times....
Addendum : There are people who does this, OMG !!