:) :(

In 24 hours...I felt the highest of the highs and the lowest of the lows...
And each feeling surges a wave of tears....
I do not like the emotional self at such times...
But the change, the feeling is too much for me to bear ....
Can somebody help me for feeling this way?
Can somebody hear me, I am crying....?

I do not like change. Change in life. Such a huge one.
I won't be able to meet her that often. She won't be available when I need to speak to her. She won't remain my 2 am friend anymore? I won't be able to drag her for any show/any play/any last minute shopping...nothing !!!!! I won't be able to be there besides her for the happiest moments of her life....some, but not all....I won't be able to see her as and when I would wish to. We both would never be the carefree youngsters on the road...doing anything and everything! The road side stalls...the cheese pav bhaji, the cheese sada dosa...all would disappear. Fragments of memory, the vanishing past.....The whole nights giggling, gossiping, talking about dreams, about life..... Aaah....I would miss it all !!!!

All this and lot more.
Hovering around since so long....I do not wish to cry and tell this to her, but would I be able to help myself....she has known each and every tear that has swelled in the eye since the past 8 years....and well, she knows me, how I react to change !!

hmm...
I do not like this feeling. And somebody whom I would wanna talk about all this, is sleeping :(

Why such thoughts?
Cos last night...I tried calling her, and well, she was busy on another call.....till 2 am...nor did she pick up my second call :(

Life now, would be such...
Can I take it?
Can I bear it ?
Acutally, do I have an option....other than letting her go......

I would miss 'us' a lot .....