She is lying to me. No, she is hiding it from me. Why in the right mind would she ever ever do that? I just cannot fathom it!!

With Mom gone, it just gets tougher to see people drift away or apart.

A bell rings within saying, what all and how much ever you are thinking is all crap.

I sincerely wish that were true!

I cannot kill my apprehensions, fears, and doubts. Not till I know the reality.

This thing, this time, I just wish I hadn't known. The fact. Its just gets too weird. :(

Miss you Mom, reckon she would have told you!!!! I feel terribly wretchedly lonely at times like these. It seems like, I am losing out on all the anchors of life :(