Mom...

- I do not ever think I will be able to wish you on social media. Like people today do. You aint gonna read those posts or messages or statuses - right? I fail to understand what medium might reach you, up there, afterall...

- Today, it is the toughest phase of my life. I wish you were here. But no, I am glad you aint. You would have hated to me standing here. AT this crossroad. At this road of endless curves and turns...yes, may be, I am just glad you are not here.

- I can't stand a mother and daughter hugging each other. And the daughter pulling pranks on the mother. And the mother laughing. That bond. That relationship. I can't stand. But know what, I have decided something. I am not gonna be like that. For how long will I turn my face or hide my tears when I see that bond? Not forever. I can't do it forever. So I am going to stop! 

Does this happen?

Imagine this.

You are standing at a bus stop with people who take a bus, may be same, may be different, everyday. This goes on for a couple of years. You get into small talks; share your dreams, destinations, desires. Then, someday they never come at the bus stop. They board the bus and are lost forever. Years later you hear that after boarding the bus that day - the last time you met - their lives got moving in different directions. They started venturing towards their dreams, destinies and desires. Most of them as you see or know seem to be in the path they thought they want to take and are doing things they want to do. Or may be doing things that you would not mind doing either.

After being in touch with different sets of people this way - via the bus stop - some day you stand back and realize...you are still at the bus stop!

Is this what people call growing old? Or is this what people call jealousy?

The feeling does not stem from the fact that you have not achieved things - monetarily or professionally. Many a times the feeling is also about reaching a particular stage on personal levels. You see the smiling pictures, you see the places visited, you see the fun and frolic, the picture that has been painted - and you feel that the grass is greener that side.

You might be wrong. You know, there are higher chances of mountains looking beautiful from a distance. But then, there is a part of you that sighs and wonders - will I ever get into the right bus? Will I ever reach the destination I want to reach? Oh yes, I know the destination --- I know my dreams ---- the problem is not about not knowing. The problem is about knowing too much. Knowing all the details you want.

Too much of being fussy might not help the cause. But then, will it be too late before I understand? And till then, I will continue looking over other people's fusiness and the real side of the stories, and continue waiting for my bus?

Why fret?

...over the rising costs? Over the long list of to-do's? Over the escalating grocery rates? Or the cost one has to pay to buy a matchbox of a flat? Over the weight on the head and the pile on the office desk?

Stop. See the clear sky above. Smell the roses. Dance and cook. Live a fret-free life, as it was meant to be!

You and I

In this beautiful world

Green grass & blue sky!

Sometimes in life, this is all one wants! And needs!

Do not tie your emotions to someone's reactions...

When you look like that - I feel am more beautiful.

When you compliment - I feel successful.

When you hug - I feel secure.

When you kiss - I feel wanted.

A vast range of emotions are tied up with the your reactions. Hence, be careful with them. In rage and in sanity.

A friend complains of physical abuse. And I wonder how does one get away with that. Shall she just walk out or tell him how his reactions matter to her, and at times break the very being of her. Being so attached so someone and then let that someone ruin your being - I think loving someone is like a double-edged sword. You get all the happiness from the same person who will hurt you the most too!

What would this be like?

" I know we could save each other, but the truth is neither of us really wants to be saved"
Loser match, marriage and life??
I am not sure that a secret formula exists for the perfect way for two people to lead lives together, but I believe that when one falls the other needs to stand. When one bruises the other needs to heal. May be they aren't as polarizing in nature, but when situations demand one has to drive the wagon ahead.
This postcard on postsecret reveals a lot about giving up? But am not sure how it might be when both.wants to give up! Bottom of the abyss for a relationship...that's what that must be...